elektro_cutie

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 03:14:57 GMT

It may seem i am strong about certain situations..
but honestly, i am more weak than you are.
don't let me fool you.

I am slowly shutting down.
I don't want this.

I don't.
I don't.
I don't.

But it's what i have until a miracle comes along.

Fuck.

instructions how to ruin your life

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 21:29:09 GMT

Basically.. it just doesn't end.

Do what I do, and i promise you a life of hell.

its time

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 18:01:14 GMT

I am back and more distraught, fucked up and lifeless than ever before.

I don't think I've ever had to deal with so much bullshit in my life as I have to today. I am slowly disappearing into nothing, and I somehow someway am content with dealing with daily chaos. I have been in and out of institutions for the past year, and each time i feel as though a part of me has been lost within the walls.

And the rest of me is being lost to my addiction.

I'm loosing the fight. Believe me.. I don't necessarily want to, but every time i try i keep getting knocked the fuck back down.

Yes a part of me loves the chaos.. loves the feeling of that fucking needle, but i'm sick of running.

I need people to pull me up from the pile of shit I'm in. Ive tried too many times by myself and failed miserably.