urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elektro_cutie elektro_cutie elektro_cutie 2006-09-20T02:15:40Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elektro_cutie:4895 2006-09-20T02:15:40Z 2006-09-20T02:15:40Z withdrawls were over after 3 days. okay, so i was clean for about 4 days, now im sniffin away again. ha. its okay though. im not as bad as i used to be. School is going good. im accually trying really hard this year, however, i have decided, yet again, that i want to go to trade school. I want to go there for cosmetology. My mom is going to call bergen tech tomorrow, and we'll see whats good with everything. <br /><br />I cant even begin to describe how excited i am for my sweet 16.<br />its going to be amazing. sdfksjdnfksndkfjs =] =] =] =]<br /><br /><br />T-bones is great, although recently ive been thinking that he doesnt want to be around me. im probobly just paranoid. whatever. ill try not to think about it too much, and just go with the flow. but i looooove him. SOOO MUCH. AND HOLYSHITFUCK! its almost 6 monthes for him and me. how fucking crazy is that? <br /><br />OOH. and also, ive been applying for new jobs.<br />I REALLY HOPE I GET ONE.<br />we'll see in time.<br /><br />goodnight. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elektro_cutie:4706 2006-09-06T20:07:57Z 2006-09-06T20:07:57Z I appologize for my shitty writing skills ahead of time.<br /><br />So today was my first day of school.<br />Second day of withdrawls.<br /><br />School kept my mind off of it some of the time, <br />but the flashes got really bad sometimes.<br /><br />I didnt sleep at all last night, so im fucking exhausted. <br />I really just want it all to end.<br /><br />Im glad my mom is supporting me with this.<br />Its really fucking amazing.<br /><br />i have nothing else to say.<br /><br />cept i love you baby. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elektro_cutie:4604 2006-09-06T05:37:30Z 2006-09-06T05:37:30Z this is my first day away from oxycotin.<br />im having the most horrible pains of my life.<br />these hot and cold flashes are unbearable.<br />i cant sleep.<br />i have a constant feeling of nausea.<br />im sweating uncontrolably.<br /><br />i keep fucking asking myself, if i should just check myself into a hospital or something. FUCK.<br /><br />i dont know.<br /><br />i really dont know.<br /><br /><br />so glad i cant sleep today, cause ive got school in 5 hours.<br /><br />i want my baby. i want him to hold me. fuckkkk. this is so bad.<br />why did i get myself into this?