|
[2/3/09 @ 10:07pm] |
| [ |
music |
| |
The Beatles- I am the Walrus |
] |
It may seem i am strong about certain situations..
but honestly, i am more weak than you are.
don't let me fool you.
I am slowly shutting down.
I don't want this.
I don't.
I don't.
I don't.
But it's what i have until a miracle comes along.
Fuck.
|
|
| its time |
[1/27/09 @ 12:49pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 drained |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Deftones- Passenger |
] |
I am back and more distraught, fucked up and lifeless than ever before.
I don't think I've ever had to deal with so much bullshit in my life as I have to today. I am slowly disappearing into nothing, and I somehow someway am content with dealing with daily chaos. I have been in and out of institutions for the past year, and each time i feel as though a part of me has been lost within the walls.
And the rest of me is being lost to my addiction.
I'm loosing the fight. Believe me.. I don't necessarily want to, but every time i try i keep getting knocked the fuck back down.
Yes a part of me loves the chaos.. loves the feeling of that fucking needle, but i'm sick of running.
I need people to pull me up from the pile of shit I'm in. Ive tried too many times by myself and failed miserably.
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
elektro_cutie's journal